Meaning of A hard beginning maketh a good ending. :John Heywood
.. she believed a great happiness awaited her somewhere, and for this reason she remained calm as the days flew by.
And the past held only this wisdom: that love was a damaging mistake, and its accomplice, hope, a treacherous illusion. And whenever those twin poisonous flowers began to sprout in the parched land of that field, Mariam uprooted them. She uprooted them and ditched them before they took hold.